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Chaos and Grace

It has been years since I last typed a blog entry, but as I find myself in the midst of the chaos of life, surrounded by grace and filled with a mixture of gratitude and stress, I find myself longing again for the blessing of organizing my thoughts into a blog post.

Without trying to catch up all at once on all the things bringing chaos and stress to our life - Here is what I most want to share:

I am finding that at the moment, most of the things that make my chest feel tight, my heart race, and even make me sit in vomit position with my head in my hands are the same things that I'm thanking God for.

My daughter getting her license, my husband leaving on a mission trip to Africa, going back to school to get certified to teach, working two jobs...

So much to worry about...so much to be grateful for.

Our greatest stresses are not always easily seen as blessings like these things of course.  But for now, I will choose to focus on the grace offered in the midst of chaos with a heart full of gratitude to the God who brings order to chaos.

I pray to You, the God who brings order to chaos.  Thank you for the people who bring the most chaos to my life and make me worry the most, because they are my biggest blessings.  Thank you that Kaitlin got her license.  Thank you for giving Charles this chance to teach and to learn in Africa.  Thank you for the opportunity to continue my education and serve You as a teacher.  Thank you for the money that working two jobs this summer will provide for our family.  Thank you that you work all things together for the good of those who love You, for I do love You and want so much to live into the grace and love you offer me as Your daughter.


1 Corinthians 14:33 "He is not the God of disorder, but of peace."

Genesis 1: 1-2    1In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. 2The earth was formless and void, and darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was moving over the surface of the waters.  (And you all know what happened next!)






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